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Tell us a little bit about yourself. (Because of spammers trying to sneak into this network, and because we would actually like to get to know you, we require you to write a few sentences about yourself. What kind of work do you do? What kind of interests do you have? How long have you been interested in near-death experiences? Etc.)
I am a widow who lost my husband March 27th, 2010 and a month before that I lost my youngest sister Feb 8th, 2010.
I believe in the near death experiences.

I wrote this poem and posted it on my Facebook page for my family friends:
I see you in a baby's smile, a beautiful sunset and sunrise; the crystal shine on the water; a bird in flight; first rain; I see everywhere that gives me warmth and beauty, I miss you and I love you and I know your with me (all of you left so early in my life). I wish I went with you but I know your with me because I see you in beauty surrounding me. I see you in a baby's smile. by Judy 7-19-11

It is very strange and sad that I posted this because the next day, my best friend needed to read this. Her 25 year old son passed away in his sleep from sleep apnea (his heart was twice the size).

We just came back from the viewing of him and he looked as if he was just asleep. It was very comforting for her to see her boy like this.

I feel that some of us are called to go through a loss of loved one/s because we are picked by God to do his work in comforting others, because we have gone through so much pain and heartache that we learn and grow from. We can in turn show others how to cope with grief and the painful broken heart.
Have you ever had a near-death experience (NDE)? If so, please tell us a little bit about it.
yes, I was embarrassed to say how and why but I guess now that so much has happened since I joined, I am ready.
I had a rocky marriage with my first husband he drank and did drugs and I tried to change him. My constant nagging him to stop only made him do more and we fought it was ugly.
One time, I threatened to leave him and he was so angry he started to choke me.
I felt his hands squeeze my neck and I was loosing my air to breathe. I remember this even to this day how I felt like my face was going to burst and it felt hot. I thought my head was going to explode and the pain was excruciating in my lungs because I literally felt like my whole body was on fire.
I remember looking at his eyes and they were not his but they were the eyes of the drug that held him captive (I felt that the drug was a force after my NDE).
In a second, I was floating above watching him choking me, I did not have pain at all, in fact I felt very very good and Peaceful, Calm and Love, I felt Love for him and everything.
I did not have a feeling of fear, anger or even sorrow. It was just pure Peace Calm and Love.
I remember I felt someone with me, not anyone I knew but someone who knew me and I felt safe, I did not talk and they did not talk but I was conversing and not realizing it.
One thing I need to point out, I did not see my life flash before my eyes. I saw only when I was 3 or 4 and that was it.
When this was happening I was watching from above but I was also watching from my body, because I prayed out in my mind while I was floating in warmth of light "God do not let my Joe be convicted for murdering me, do not let my children be subject to this" as soon as I said that (or thought it), I saw Joe's eyes turn from black to tears and he let go of my neck. Also the room turned back to the light it was not as bright as when I was floating. I was instantly felt the pain in my neck like a bruise or my adams apple was in the way when you would swallow, I was gasping for air and coughing. Very upset, yet the Peace, Calm and Love was still in me but not as strong.
We never did fight that terrible ever again, eventually we just could not live together and divorced after 24 years of marriage.
We did stay friends and he recently passed.
Has a friend of family member of yours ever had a near-death experience (NDE), near-death-like experience (NDLE), shared death experience (SDE), or other spiritually transformative experience (STE)? If so, tell us a little bit about that.
yes, Joe, my ex husband was in coma, he was diabetic and had liver disease from his drinking all his life. He was brought back to life in the hospital a few months before he passed and he told me of his experience.
His was so weird and yet I do not question it because I think we will all feel differently because we are individuals.
He said he looked up from his bed and saw two large beings on either side of him. They were glowing and they were so big they seem to be taller than the 10 foot ceiling in the hospital room. He said they were cats, they had cat heads.
I told him to stop teasing me but he insisted that is his NDE.
He said they would understand him even when he did not talk, they read his thoughts but he also read theirs.
I asked him what did you understand and he told me it was clear when it happened but now (then when he told me) he could not remember and yet all he remembered is that they made him happy.
Why did you decide to join this network?
I feel so much closer to my beliefs by watching this.
Anything else you would like to share?
I believe my loved ones who passed, are at Peace and no more pain.

Judy's Blog

A little from my Diary dated March 30, 2010

Posted on July 22, 2011 at 10:31pm 2 Comments

wrote this poem to my Carmelo...

No More & Forever More

No More Needles poking deep in your veins

Forever More, Your wings replaced your pains

No More medications or lactolose to drink

Forever More, you can do everything, than just blink

No More Tubes of fluids making you painfully swell

Forever More, dancing with…

A Little from my Diary dated March 22, 2010

Posted on July 22, 2011 at 10:24pm 0 Comments

So far from my last post he has had two more episodes, He was confirmed on having a fungus in his blood from the infection in his urine. 

His liver is supposed to clean his blood but since it is in end stage, it can no longer circulate and detox the infections as it should.

So even though they take blood cultures of him every 4 hrs and they are now showing neg of the fungus, they must wait for 14 days of…

A Little from my Diary dated Jan 3, 2010

Posted on July 22, 2011 at 10:08pm 0 Comments

Well, I have had a roller coaster two days of mixed feelings and emotions. Carmelo's feeling very depressed, he does not have a big appetite eiter. Infact, he is nausated again and vomiting what ever he does eat.

Being he is 6'1", he should weigh more than 169lbs, he is very thin and I know this is also a contributing factor to his weaknesses.

He does not…

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At 11:34pm on July 21, 2011, David Sunfellow said…
Hi Judy. Welcome! I'm sorry to hear of the loss of your husband and sister last year. Carol, who just joined the network today, lost her husband earlier this year. So there are folks here who are kindred spirits. And, of course, everyone here shares a passionate interest in all things pertaining to near-death experiences. You should feel right at home...
At 12:04am on July 22, 2011, Marie Cook said…
Hi Judy and welcome. I am so sorry to hear about your husband and your sister. And to lose 2 loved ones so very close together like that must have been devastating. I too have lost a loved one 4 months ago. My sister died of cancer and I stayed with her in the hospital for 5 weeks until she died. I miss her very much as I am sure you must also miss your loved ones. I am glad that you are aware that your loved ones are at peace and are no longer in pain. I am still a work in progress because I have not come to terms yet with my sisters death and that is why I am on this sight. I am hoping to be convinced that what these people have experienced and the love and peace they have found in heaven is where my sister is now and that she is also happy and at peace.
At 2:38pm on July 22, 2011, Carol Ayers said…

Welcome and warmest hugs to you ((((Judy)))! Sorry is not enough to express my sadness for your double loss. Losing any member of your family is harder than words can say but losing your spouse is unlike any other loss. No one can know until they go through it. My husband died from liver cancer on Valentine's Day this year. It was not unexpected but the only true solace for me has been reading the NDEs and the support and caring from other widows at the link below. I'm sure they will welcome you with open arms there as well.    http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/WidowNet/

I just discovered NHNE yesterday and I'm trying to read through each an every member's post here. This is a wonderful site, so many caring and warm people here. I'm glad you've joined us!

At 6:46pm on July 22, 2011, Carol Ayers said…
Judy, I love the picture you posted because it is so honest. My feeble effort to smile in my
picture was a lie. It's the lie we are so often forced to tell every time somebody says 'how are you doing?" We are certain they really don't want to know how we're doing, at least not the truth of the matter. They don't want to know how truly broken we are inside and how much effort it takes for us to stand before them. No they don't. They say they do but no they really don't want to know. That's why they all seem to disappear after the services are over with.
Feb. 8 was the day my husband left home to go into hospice care and he never returned home. He was dead 7 days later. Since then I have read so many books and so many NDE stories and anything I could get my hands on to try to find that illusive connection, that one thing that would make me know that he is okay and that he still loves me and that we will be together again. I need to know that beyond a shadow of a doubt. Throughout all the NDE stories, the one theme that keeps repeating itself is that LOVE is ALL.
At 6:47pm on July 22, 2011, Carol Ayers said…
One of the books I've found most helpful in my healing process is "Healing After Loss (Daily Meditations) by Martha W. Hickman. It is a wonderful book. I highly recommend it. I quote "the intensity of grief (which will moderate, though we find that hard to believe) mirrors the intensity of shared love, which will continue to beam through our life, to illumine and nourish all that we do and are. Love never ends. Never." Another saying I've heard is that grief is only evidence that we have loved. We must never give up on love. If the immediate object of our love is inaccessible to us, then we must love ourselves by continually reminding ourselves that we do know love, we must not let ourselves forget that we have been and still are loved and that love never ends...never!
At 6:48pm on July 22, 2011, Carol Ayers said…
Leonard Cohen said it best in this song, There Ain't No Cure For Love. I loved you for a long, long time I know this love is real It don't matter how it all went wrong That don't change the way I feel And I can't believe that time's Gonna heal this wound I'm speaking of There ain't no cure, There ain't no cure, There ain't no cure for love I'm aching for you baby I can't pretend I'm not I need to see you naked In your body and your thought I've got you like a habit And I'll never get enough There ain't no cure, There ain't no cure, There ain't no cure for love There ain't no cure for love There ain't no cure for love All the rocket ships are climbing through the sky The holy books are open wide The doctors working day and night But they'll never ever find that cure for love There ain't no drink no drug (Ah tell them, angels) There's nothing pure enough to be a cure for love I see you in the subway and I see you on the bus I see you lying down with me, I see you waking up I see your hand, I see your hair Your bracelets and your brush And I call to you, I call to you But I don't call soft enough There ain't no cure, There ain't no cure, There ain't no cure for love I walked into this empty church I had no place else to go When the sweetest voice I ever heard, whispered to my soul I don't need to be forgiven for loving you so much It's written in the scriptures It's written there in blood I even heard the angels declare it from above There ain't no cure, There ain't no cure, There ain't no cure for love There ain't no cure for love There ain't no cure for love All the rocket ships are climbing through the sky The holy books are open wide The doctors working day and night But they'll never ever find that cure, That cure for love
At 8:34pm on November 27, 2011, Annie Palmer said…

I'm glad you liked my experience. I'm glad it happened, and like everyone, I sure didn't want to come back. Still had 8 more quarters of chiropractic college to finish, and that wasn't too fun. I knew I felt extremely empty and didn't have a clue how to get it back until the last couple years. Still get into the empty shell feelings, but know when I sit with a crystal in my lap, and go through the meditation, I'll quickly fill up with Light. AhhHHhhhhhh :D  

At 3:50pm on November 29, 2011, Jan Struble said…

Thank you Judy for your condolences.  I am having a very difficult time...mainly because my beloved Steve who passed away was also my childhood sweetheart.  I was going through a very difficult phase of my life when he looked me up a year and a half ago.  We had been separated 38 years. We were ecstatic.. He proposed marriage to me in front of his entire family. I was finally happy and so was he...Then the unthinkable happened..Steve was diagnosed with liver cancer.  Thirteen months after our second reunion he underwent a liver transplant and suffered a cardiac arrest moments later. Thus, 36 hours later..it took his life.  That was June 20th of this year.  Now I am trying my best to understand why he would be taken away after just finding ea other.  To be frank, I am still lost and very confused.  I turn to God everyday for answers but nothing makes any sense.  I am reaching out to others as you are through grief bereavement chat rooms and such but I am still walking around in circles trying to understand why this happened..Very heartsick and hurt.  Thank you for listening however, and perhaps one day the answers will come..

At 5:26pm on November 29, 2011, Walt Motley said…

Judy, I just read your post about your "Breakthrough" and also the story of your NDE. I feel strongly that I need to tell you (and everyone here who has been willing to share their NDE) how important your reports are to those of us who have not had a direct glimpse of Home. It seems to me that, along with so much else that is unfolding on our planet right now, the explosion of NDEs is being given to ALL of us as an amazing gift which is meant to dramatically re-orient our world-view and enable us, in some way which none of us fully understands, to viscerally participate in your visit there. Please, none of you, ever discount the power and immeasurable value of your report. In a real way, the glimpse you have been blessed with, however brief or however extensive, is more important to the "rest of us" than is to you! Only you know how infinitely important it is to you - try to imagine how much it means to us. Your purpose (all of you) for the rest of your life in this realm, it seems to me, is to faithfully continue telling your story. The impact that you (all of you) can have on the rest of us and on the generations to follow is incalcuable!

At 5:29pm on November 29, 2011, Walt Motley said…

A new profile picture just popped up for you  -- I love it!

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